Tasting Never (Never say Never) by C.M. Stunich

Author:C.M. Stunich [Stunich, C.M.]
Language: eng
Format: epub, mobi
Tags: romance
Publisher: Sarian Royal
Published: 2012-12-22T06:00:00+00:00

17

I'm sitting in a plastic chair next to Ty, and I'm shaking so bad that my teeth are chattering. It's not that I'm cold, not with Ty's jacket wrapped around me like a second skin. I'm shaking because sitting here in this office with these posters all around me, I feel sick.

Do you feel alone? Do you use sex as a way to connect with strangers? Have your desires motivated you to seek sex with people you wouldn't normally choose? How about in places or situations you wouldn't normally choose? Do your sexual encounters leave you at risk for STIs, unwanted pregnancies, rape or violence? Have you ever had a sexual encounter that has left you feeling hopeless or alienated? Suicidal?

Everywhere I fucking look there's another poster with a girl or a boy who's either crying or holding their head like they're in pain. And my answer to every single fucking question that's printed above their melancholy faces is YES. Y. E. S. It's almost enough to make me walk out. The only thing keeping me seated is Ty's hand in my lap. He's been letting me examine his tattoos as a way to keep my mind occupied.

“So I only got things with wings,” Ty says as I trace an orange and black butterfly on the back of his hand. “Because I wanted to be free. Every time I got a new tattoo, I promised myself that this was the day I changed everything. This was the day I grew my own wings and flew away.”

“What happened?” I whisper, afraid that if I speak too loudly, the receptionist might look up and see me for what I really am. A person with a broken soul. I swallow hard and glance at the door fearfully when the bell above the entrance rings. There are no other patients in here now, but if there were, I don't think I could do this. I couldn't sit here with anyone who knows what I really am, what's wrong with me, why I'm here. Except for Ty. Just Ty. Fortunately, it's just a delivery man. He drops a small package at the front desk and leaves while I keep my head tilted down and away for fear that he'll memorize my face, call me out on the street or something, see me in class.

“I never really tried, Never. I didn't know what to try for.”

“But you do now?” I ask, but before Ty can answer, the door to the back opens.

“Mr. McCabe?” the woman with the clipboard says. She's smiley and nice and all, but I bet underneath all of that sweet, she's thinking, What the hell is wrong with these kids? Why are they here? What happened to make them this way? I stare into her brown eyes and am paralyzed with fear. This is my worst nightmare come true. Inside these walls, I cannot lie. I cannot pretend, not anymore.

“Are you going to be okay?” Ty asks me as he shakes my knee gently to grab my attention.

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